I freaking did it!!!

Well yesterday was my doctors appointment and I was so shocked at my results. I have been battling with my cholesterol since 2005 and finally I have it under control. My levels went from 336 to 174, I was in amazement!! All the hard work of getting up at 3:30 in the morning, all the watching what I put in my body, and also being consistent with taking my meds has paid off. Before I made excuses of why I didn't want to work out or couldn't work but now I realize even more that it is very important that not only should I be mindful of what I'm eating but very mindful of what I'm doing with this body of mine. I mean hell it is my body and I only get one, so I guess I better respect that and appreciate it. To hell with all the excuses of why I can't. To anyone out there that thought for one minute that it is bullshit and that diet and exercise doesn't play a part in whether you are healthy or not, well I beg to differ!! Just remember it takes work, may not be easy but anything worth having usually isn't! Can't Stop Won't Stop......

Look where I am now...

Wow it's week 7 of Phase 2 with P90X and to be honest I never thought that I would make it here. I keep saying damn girl if you had just kept going the first time around you would have been so far now, but its okay because at least I'm doing something now. Everytime I look at myself now, it amazes me how much I've already changed. I'm so looking forward to my 41st birthday and seeing how I look and feel, being able to do things that I couldn't do before, like running, running upstairs, playing with my son without feeling like I'm going to pass out. Lowering my cholesterol, which I'm hoping is lower , but I will find that out on Thursday. Gotta keep pushing and pushing and pushing, even when I don't want to get my ass out of bed or want to drink another drop of water. Looking at where I am now only makes me more excited about where I will be in the future.

It's my Anniversary!!!

Well today is the day to celebrate my 10th wedding anniversary! Wow, it is simply amazing that the time flies by so fast. I think we all want to believe that our marriage will last forever but in reality I think we all know that life, love and marriage is all a gamble. You have to know how to maintain a healthy relationship with your mate. Now that shit is easy to say and write but not so easy to do. I am just happy that I have the opportunity to celebrate 10 years. When I look back on all the years that we have shared I've come to realize that I have to appreciate the years that we have had, learn from the mistakes we've made, remember to not be so damn petty (lol), appreciate what I have in my husband and never take him for granted. I am hoping that with prayer, faithfulness, dedication and continued hard work, and the occasional drink and argument that we will have the opportunity to spend many more years together. My grandparents we're married 62 years, and if I have the opportunity for that many years that is truly a blessing!! Take it one day at a time and live everyday as if it is the last and never forget to smile and laugh along the way!!

It feels good to be back with big sis!!

Last week I had to take some time away from working out because my knees were giving me major problems. It was so miserable not being able to get up every morning and work out with my big sis. Shay has been great to work out with and such a motivation and inspiration. When she told me that I should take some time off I actually cried. Yes I actually broke down and cried. Why? Well it's very simple, I want to be healthy and I want to be fit. I have this image of what I would like to look like and also a goal of how I would love to feel. This journey of losing weight is not just to be able to buy smaller clothes or a fad, it is the way of life for me and the way for me to help to stay alive longer to be able to raise my son and grow old with my husband. This week was great because I was back with big sis and as usual we got it in. We worked hard and we got our sweat on and on this day I feel amazing that I did not allow the issue of knee pain to hinder me or defeat me!! You see, quitting is not an option! Can't stop!! Won't stop!!!

Wednesday Workout 09.07.11

Wow, what a workout this morning. Big sis and I decided to do Pilates for Dummies and let me just say that you definitely should not sleep on the pilates. It was an amazing workout. Although I didn't want to get up this morning I'm so glad I did, because I got my heart to pumping and that adrenaline to going and now I feel amazing, again. It is very true what my big sis says about what you do to lose the weight or to get healthy has to be what you are capable and willing to do for the rest of your life to maintain it. I know that I can get up every morning and exercise and get my body moving, I now know that I can prepare healthy nutritious meals just the way I like them without all the added junk and it still taste good. It always amazes me how we always want to take the shortcuts or the easy way out and then we are disappointed at the results, when the truth of the matter is, that if we take our time and be dedicated and consistent(very important) that even though our journey may move at a slow pace we will still win the race. Everyday I'm becoming more and more positive about the woman that I am and the woman that I will be!! You see working out and getting healthy and fit is not only good for your body but its good for your soul and your mind and definitely your spirit!!

Fitness to live...

I never thought that it would be a day when a doctor would look me in the face and say, "if you don't work out and eat right you are going to die. I was one of those people who thought that they would never gain any weight, I was wrong. Many look at me and say you are skinny or girl you don't need to lose weight but they just don't have any idea that on the inside is where all the damage is. My cholesterol is so high that they have me going to the Lipid Clinic. Yeah!! But the fight is not over but merely beginning. I work out now with my big sis Shay every morning from 4am til around 5:30am, so I'm up at 3:30am. Yes, me. Never would have thought that I would even have it in me to get my ass up and work out at the crack of damn dawn, but I am. Why? Because I want to live, I want to be healthy and I want to get in my clothes without passing out. I also do it so that I can live to raise my son and grow old with my husband!! Now, after one month I feel that I can't live without working out! I've even shed a tear because I couldn't workout!! Yes, me! Again this is the beginning of something beautiful and awesome and I'm ready for the journey!!